Early Christmas present

Felix (godbrother) came back to Kl for a week. We had breakfast and shopped a little before I head back to work. We chatted, gossiped, and browsed through some cute guys pics. And before he went off, he gave me an early Christmas present, a book - Velvet Rage.

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I am actually quite curious to know more about gays and they way they live their life. Reading at the end of chapter 5 describing first gay relationship, I found this paragraph meaningful and true -
To be gay in an uncompromisingly straight world is to struggle to find love and, once found, to hold onto it. we are men in a world where men are emotionally disabled by our masculine cultural ideals. And we are men who threaten those ideals by loving another man at a time in life when we are neither equipped for the varnishes of love or the torment of shame (Downs, 2005).

Alan Downs explained that the first gay love in our early life are usually the most intimate kind. We have fond memories of our first time lover and they are some of our most defining relationship. Myself had seen these imprint of my first time lover over me. We dated briefly 3 years ago and separated. Then we dated again for almost 2 years until now and separated again.